I’m thinking about what I want to do with my life next. For the first time in three years, the horizons look open and anything is possible. I’m no longer battling with bipolar disorder, I have a stable job, I have an S.O., and my big project (the AIDS Ride) is about to complete. I could go ANYWHERE from here!
So I’m thinking carefully about my next goals. It’s not really about having a pleasant life full of challenges””I could have that just by drifting along””but I want to think about my next large project, and rearrange my life in support of that. For example, I could decide to learn drawing, and arrange my life around one or two drawing classes per week, read through all my books on drawing, pick a significant artistic project, and devote my energies there. I could decide to finish writing my book, which would probably mean joining a writers’ group, taking a writing class, and committing significant time to writing. I could decide to work on a successor to the spiral shawl, in which case I’d have to think a lot about fibers and blending and spend a LOT of time spinning and knitting. I could train for the Death Ride. The list goes on and on”¦I’m considering all of them, and also thinking about spiritual goals.
It’s so hard for me to choose between this and that, but I also don’t want to drift. At the moment I’m leaning towards finishing the book (because I really do want to), but drawing is also very tempting””Patrick and Christo are both artists and it would be fun to draw with them. I could do both, but it depends on how much free time I have. Mike is also very important to me, so that’s another place to devote my life-energies.
But I am really thinking hard about what to do and where to go next with my life.
Meanwhile, the tutu update:
- Blue-green silk dupioni top with blue-green silk organza tutu
- Peacock feather top with peacock-feather tutu
- White wedding-dress top (silk dupioni) with a white tutu with gold stars
- Screaming pink silk dupioni top with a knitted hot pink tutu
- Red silk dress with white trim and poofy bottom
- Bright orange top with bright orange tutu
- Purple silk top with sequined purple tutu
I still have to sew five of the tops, though, so I don’t know if I’ll have time for all of them. I’m also not certain I’ll wear all the tops–the temperatures can hit 90-100 pretty easily on the ride, and cycling jerseys wick sweat a lot better than silk does. I’m going to carry a spare cycling jersey with me every day just in case the temperature gets too high””then I can switch out of the top and wear a normal cycling jersey. Unfortunately, the first requirement of any costume is that I can ride 80-100 miles in it. That pretty significantly limits things.