I’m thinking about what I want to do with my life next. For the first time in three years, the horizons look open and anything is possible. I’m no longer battling with bipolar disorder, I have a stable job, I have an S.O., and my big project (the AIDS Ride) is about to complete. I could go ANYWHERE from here!
So I’m thinking carefully about my next goals. It’s not really about having a pleasant life full of challenges—I could have that just by drifting along—but I want to think about my next large project, and rearrange my life in support of that. For example, I could decide to learn drawing, and arrange my life around one or two drawing classes per week, read through all my books on drawing, pick a significant artistic project, and devote my energies there. I could decide to finish writing my book, which would probably mean joining a writers’ group, taking a writing class, and committing significant time to writing. I could decide to work on a successor to the spiral shawl, in which case I’d have to think a lot about fibers and blending and spend a LOT of time spinning and knitting. I could train for the Death Ride. The list goes on and on…I’m considering all of them, and also thinking about spiritual goals.
It’s so hard for me to choose between this and that, but I also don’t want to drift. At the moment I’m leaning towards finishing the book (because I really do want to), but drawing is also very tempting—Patrick and Christo are both artists and it would be fun to draw with them. I could do both, but it depends on how much free time I have. Mike is also very important to me, so that’s another place to devote my life-energies.
But I am really thinking hard about what to do and where to go next with my life.
Meanwhile, the tutu update:
- Blue-green silk dupioni top with blue-green silk organza tutu
- Peacock feather top with peacock-feather tutu
- White wedding-dress top (silk dupioni) with a white tutu with gold stars
- Screaming pink silk dupioni top with a knitted hot pink tutu
- Red silk dress with white trim and poofy bottom
- Bright orange top with bright orange tutu
- Purple silk top with sequined purple tutu
I still have to sew five of the tops, though, so I don’t know if I’ll have time for all of them. I’m also not certain I’ll wear all the tops–the temperatures can hit 90-100 pretty easily on the ride, and cycling jerseys wick sweat a lot better than silk does. I’m going to carry a spare cycling jersey with me every day just in case the temperature gets too high—then I can switch out of the top and wear a normal cycling jersey. Unfortunately, the first requirement of any costume is that I can ride 80-100 miles in it. That pretty significantly limits things.